Blodmåne: Astrid’s Halloween

A pale young woman with a platinum-blonde fringed bob, red lips and a black lace veil gazes out of the window of a Stockholm night bus, with no reflection in the glass, while blurred, greyed-out passengers behind her look at their phones
Night bus through Stockholm. The window doesn’t keep her.

Nobody sees her

Astrid is back, and she has changed. We last saw her riding the metro in Blå linjen, headphones on, shutting the world out, and before that dancing through a midsummer night in Nattvärme. This time the world has shut her out instead. Somewhere between the last warm night and the first frost, she became a vampire.

She still moves through Stockholm the way she always did. She rides the night bus and walks the cobbles of Gamla stan. Platinum bob, red lips, black lace from head to toe, and still nobody looks up. There’s no face in the bus window. Halloween comes and goes, the Christmas lights go up, and the couples in the café windows never notice her pass.

Blodmåne means “Blood Moon”, and it’s her Halloween song: a slow gothic darkwave love song with a Nordic synth-pop heart, half Swedish and half English. A heartbeat kick and deep analogue sub bass sit under cold, detuned pads, a glassy music box and a church organ somewhere far off, with Astrid’s breathy vocal close enough to feel on your neck.

In a long black lace gown and veil, she walks barefoot along a snowy cobbled street in Gamla stan under Christmas lights and paper stars, past a café window where couples sit by candlelight without seeing her
Barefoot in the snow, past a café full of couples. Nobody looks up.

Cold skin, warm soul

It opens with a whisper, “Kom närmare” (“Come closer”), and from there it’s a love song, just a dangerous one. By the water she hears a stranger’s heart racing, “warm as summer, loud as day”, and she wants them the way she knows she shouldn’t. “Love, you should have looked away,” she sings. The pre-chorus keeps coming back to four Swedish words: “Kall hud, varm själ” (“Cold skin, warm soul”).

Seen from behind, she stands before a huge gilded mirror in a candlelit gothic castle hall, and her pale, fanged reflection dissolves into grey smoke
The mirror catches her for a heartbeat, fangs and all, then lets her go to smoke.

In the second verse the mirror gives her away: “In the mirror I am fading / Only you are standing there.” Then the organ swells and the bridge drops to a whisper: “Jag vill inte skada dig, men jag kan inte släppa dig” (“I don’t want to hurt you, but I can’t let you go”).

Dawn

“Gryningen kommer, och jag är fortfarande här” (“Dawn is coming, and I’m still here”). The sun is supposed to be the end of her. Instead she climbs onto a rooftop above Riddarholmen, closes her eyes and lets the light find her, and frost glitters across her face like tiny diamonds. The heartbeat slows and stops, and the song ends on one last whisper: “God natt, min älskade” (“Goodnight, my love”).

On a rooftop at sunrise, eyes closed and face turned to the light, frost glitters on her face, lashes and platinum hair above the spires of Stockholm
Sunrise over Riddarholmen. Not ash. Frost, glittering like diamonds.

Listen

Hear Blodmåne on Suno

Astrid’s earlier songs: Nattvärme and Blå linjen

More of the set: suno.com/@kaisermaschine

Headphones on, lights low. If someone striking sits beside you on the night bus, check the window.

Would you have looked away? Tell me in the comments, and follow the blog for more of Astrid and more Halloween songs all through October.

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